Love Saves Me

It was a looooooooong day :)

Never deny yourself of the pleasures that life has to offer. Chocolate. Sex. A good foot message. It’s here for a reason, so enjoy it!

I’m 5’7” so I guess I’m tall. So tall that I’m afraid of heights. I’m so afraid of heights that I don’t even wear high heels. I slowly walk downstairs, and I don’t like to climb ladders.

I’m fat, yeah I said it. I can’t buy clothes form Forever 21 because they only go from sizes XS-L. So that’s not gonna happen. I love chocolate, pizzas, and fries. Sue me. I don’t workout but it does not mean that I’m not active. The only thing that I get positive reviews for are my smile and breast. Who knew.

I’m not white. That’s right, I’m black. So what. My skin looks like Country Time butter, and I’m happy. I have a wonderful big family that originates from Louisiana and South Carolina. Awesome! I don’t have blues eyes. Brown eyes are a dominate trait and that’s what I have. I don’t have blonde hair. My hair is Sandy Brown and it looks great in the sunlight!

I don’t have a boyfriend. Thank goodness. I’m in college and u don’t need distractions especially from a guy. I never had a boyfriend. That’s right. I became third in my class of 100, passed my Trig regents and Chemistry regents as well as getting into a great college where I’m thriving wonderfully. All these accomplishments without some immature guy who would probably weigh me down.

This is who I am and I love who I am. I am not ashamed and can never be. This is life, and it can never disappoint me. This is me bitches!

It’s gonna be much harder than I thought. The eating is under control, I haven’t had chocolate or soda in four days so I’m proud that I kept my promise.

The exercising is harder!!!!! I try to find the time and energy to so it everyday.

At times I get tired, give up, or fail at some of the exercises I’ve been doing.

I hate that. It makes me feel as though I can’t lose weight or even do something as simple as a push up while I’m at my current weight. It’s tough and I know everyday for the next six months it’s gonna get harder.

I wish there was an easier way, but there isn’t an I don’t know how to push my self through it.

I feel like such a failure sometimes because I got myself into this weight and I don’t know how I can get myself out of it.

This sucks so bad :(

We have to allow ourselves to be loved by the people who really love us, the people who really matter. Too much of the time, we are blinded by our own pursuits of people to love us, people that don’t even matter, while all that time we waste and the people who do love us have to stand on the sidewalk and watch us beg in the streets! It’s time to put an end to this. It’s time for us to let ourselves be loved.

C. JoyBell

Life is beautiful, and don’t let anyone tell you different!

I don’t know what the new year will bring. I’m not sure if I’ll change for better. For worse. I’m not certain that all my hopes and dreams can come true this New Year.

I don’t know if I’ll fall in love for the first time.

I don’t know if I’ll lose weight, and finally have the constant laughter stop.

I don’t know if my second semester in college will be easier than the first.

I don’t know if I’ll ever finally have friends that I can hang out with.

I don’t know if I’ll ever stop being such a loner. a loser. a weirdo.

I don’t know what the New Year can bring, but whatever it is, I hope it’s something I can look forward to.

Drum roll:

Religious Studies - B (light applause)

Music of the Western World - B+ (steady applause)

Freshman Seminar - A (loud - applause)

Fundamentals of Speech - A- (louder applause)

Sociology - C ( crickets )

Thank you ladies and gentlemen!

Christmas: Very nice. I received Old Navy shirts, courtesy of my mother. A lovely green coat, scarf, and hat ( green is not my favorite color). A watch that doesn’t fit around my wrist. A bracelet that does fit around my wrist. And an iPhone that I received two weeks before the Holidays!!!!

Candy: My mom loaded out stockings with candy! Sour patches, sugar stix, goobers, and nerds!!!!

Chanel: My sister woke me up Christmas morning. We laughed, ate, played Just Dance 4, cleaned, and played two great games of Trouble Pop-O-Matic. She was tired and had pain in her lower back wishing forced her to retire to her room to sleep it off. After awaking we talked to our grandmother and aunts over oovoo, and suddenly she left. She just left. I thought she was sick, and I thought she was in pain. But no. A giant came and took her into the cold, dark night. Why do I right about her, my sister, Chanel? Well it’s because it’s the first Christmas that we actually spent some time together before she went off to hang out with the trolls and giants of my neighborhood. Like she always does every day and limits very night. Christmas with Candy and Chanel was a great day!